Flow of the moment

moon sliverThe kiss of Silence. twisting tongues and embrace body, soul and reaching within to sense the reality with each breath. I sense another writing through me and I am fine with this. perhaps a past presence of myself and a visiting energy dwelling within for a moment’s exhale. the connection is smoothing and centered. my eyes can close and adventure into the universe. cold toes and feeling hands on my arms, I am one with another and breathing their thoughts. Knowing not exactly who, yet my inner child is giggling. Breathing in magic as the words appear beyond me. Dancing fingertips, music plays in the distant. Violin strings humming, french horn blowing like the breeze. I am floating. Oh yes as a sigh. Seeing green cottonwoods singing and the stream water moving, rocking mountains embrace down to the shore. Now the ocean breeze, toes in sands and gripping, the water continues beyond the horizon in calm becoming. Alone by the shores, traveling like a bird, skimming the tops of the waves I am gliding. The strings continue strumming and seeing the entire coast line with ease as I fly a bit higher towards the clouds in the distance. Opening and lifting, then plummeting downward, spinning head at the speed. Landing on a limb of an old oak in a field, again…only endless horizons do I see. A rabbit freeze as he notices my movement. I have no need to eat him, so I turn away to free him. Haystacks dot the fields, golden and stacked high, like a VanGogh painting with rich texture and colors blazing. I soar high again… seeing a castle for visiting, surrounded by lots of trees and hills so beautiful of greens. Lake Como is sparking in the sunlight of dusk, dancing pinks, creams and violet on surface. Quiet town and village, all in their homes with family. I continue onward. I do wonder who is holding me as I become this eagle or hawk and melting into flight.
Now landing on a large rock overlooking a river, full moon begins to peek over the mountain nearby. I know this place from dreams long again. sweet memories of friendship, conversations with wisdom. my passions for writing came soon with this magic. inspirations and adventures within the mind’s eye and imagination lives with this time. Toes getting colder, where are my socks? I don’t want to stop this flow of words is amazing. I want to know more of the adventures with words, connecting with other expressionists who chose me to commune with this moment of sharing. Perhaps with my childhood, and my inner child escaping, I met this wonders along with way without knowing. Sleeping to reach out to the stars, breathing in the awe and light to full me up with more creating. I stretch my back releasing the tension that was building. Lyrically they may come this. Labels upon labels…to organize the writing. Poetry comes for a visit, a dance and a song. Embodying the person, identity and energy while breathing in the sweetness. So close I am with the eagle’s heart beating, with flight and adventure, I realize my power. Oneness is beauty, grace and alchemy…
Hello Merlin. I thank you for another lesson in living. Taking the higher point of view and the endless possibilities with you. You embraced and showed me just how easy it is… to become one with the living Mother Earth presence.

A sleeping thought…

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The thought came to me while I was sleeping or half a sleep…”step into your destiny” and I got an immediate leg cramp. A little resistance into that concept it would seem.
Why? I am slowly working on all the things that make me happy and in joy. Living in the moment, yet stepping into my destiny seems overwhelming at best.

Perhaps because I am not clear what that destiny is for me… or perhaps I thought I had stepped into my destiny and I am continuously slapped down and told, try again in a different way. I am a little tired of picking myself off the floor and saying its okay… I get it that that wasn’t the right way.

May I simply ask and receive a clear answer on exactly, directly and precisely what is my destiny that I am stepping into being?

I am hearing “no” clear enough. And I will continue to ask that simple question until something clicks inside of me with enough passion and clarity that I do act on it. I have been a dabbler for long enough and I truly wish to get on the right path and relax in the joy of the immense passion I feel for it all. Is that really asking too much? I don’t think so. Yet, I ramble again and feel again… the presence of the Universe, my lessons and experience encircling me into action. I am typing again…or writing… or processing that very thing that come into mind.

Okay… the ego. Let’s talk about a balance ego and meaning of it. Balanced ego is a healthy reflection of self esteem and confidence in oneself to move forward fearlessly. That feels about right. I need to add something that it will attract the right action, right time and place magic too. So what else is a healthy balanced ego… It moves you forward, not sideways with distracts that seem like just the right information when in truth… it is just a temporary distraction of avoiding the true path towards destiny.{via wordweb}


Why I am here. Well, let’s look at the true meaning of destiny via wordweb: we have a few.
“An event (or a course of events) that will inevitably happen in the future” this sounds like synchronicity, more than a destiny to step into … or perhaps this is when you know you have stepped into your destiny. That makes perfect sense to me.
Next one: “The ultimate agency regarded as predetermining the course of events (often personified as a woman)”

Predetermining? Let’s get clear on the meaning of this word now…

This first one sounds like… “the agreements of lessons and experiences we sign up to have in this lifetime. (Theology) being determined in advance; especially the doctrine (usually associated with Calvin) that God has foreordained every event throughout eternity (including the final salvation of mankind).” And this can be changed, rewritten and re-scripted and one I feel I need to look at with the next two meaning in mind.
These being… ‘the use of intention with a goal of actions: ‘A mental determination or resolve in advance; an antecedent intention to do something.’ And ‘the act of determining or ordaining in advance what is to take place.’

In other words, you create your own destiny. So choose one dream and go for it.

What in the past showed me the most flow into synchronicities? Music, assisting others, traveling, and my choices in creative enterprises gave me fulfillment in the past.
Which one still has magic for me? Traveling, music, creativity…
Which made me financially stable with new and real opportunities? Well, music/words was the closest. Assisting others did get me some yet through others sites. Though now that I think about… it were my words that got that going on. So there are changes to be made in re-scripting my life’s destiny…or dream for me. This brings us full circle with the last meaning of destiny…”Your overall circumstances or condition in life (including everything that happens to you)”

I have had plenty of nudges in creating something and the Universe will support me. Manifesting things, small things can lead to bigger ones. So have I stepped into my own destiny without realizing it…? Of course, as in each moment, our thoughts create our reality… This is why it is easy to be fearless in stepping into your own destiny. Creating a moment of choice with passion can only lead you to the next step when open to the guidance of your heart to the next step onto your destiny. Enjoy your choices each day and thrive by living.

2014 ~ the year of endings, releasing and rebirth.

How did you see 2014? Or is it better to say feel?

2014 emphasized changes, awakenings and evolution through releasing, endings and some very deep reflections.

In part, with the guidance of the Father figure planet, Saturn, we engaged the depths of our beings to see our inner truths, reconnect with our inner voice, accepting and then releasing the masks and false acts in one form or another.

Saturn has recently ended his trip through the King of Death and Rebirth, Scorpio… we all delved deep into the mud of us — individually, and as a whole, with healing the ailments from the exposure of the dark truth in these times.

Listening to music, you found the answers to get through 2014 and the Saturn on slaughter…

“Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
Well, give me all you got, and don’t hold it back, yeah,
Well, I should probably warn you I’ll be just fine, yeah,
No offense to you, don’t waste your time.”

~ Pharrell, Happy

Saturn has been the earthly father of practicality and breaking the illusions as we now can see the harsh reality coming to a head.

The mirroring of our world with the destruction with the help of Pluto (transition) and Uranus (unexpected) enlightens us to the depths of desperation and shows us the truths we now need to change within us. Light is at the end of this tunnel.

We can see it, feel it, and sense we are on the edge of some of the biggest changes in the world’s history.

“I don’t care
what they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on.
The cold never bothered me anyway.”

~ Idina Menzel, Frozen

We must first look at the endings to be reborn. Here are some of the low yet inspiring moments of this past year that have taken aim at our hearts, our realization and growth:

The insanity and end of sanity in racial tensions with Ferguson and New York and the shootings continue. The aftermath of the shootings led to other shootings in senseless madness. Leaders of all Parties are calling for the shooting to stop now.

The question for us is: how to change the imbalances in humanity? In truth, we are all equal — all here to learn through experiences and grow. Are we learning from these experiences to grow into a peaceful resolution?

“Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results.” ~ Albert Einstein

Ebola opened our eyes to the ease of exchanging fear for common sense. We are all living on one world and we are all connected. Separation of the mind doesn’t end the pain of others, especially in distant places.

Some Americans took great risks to help West Africans with the worst outbreak of Ebola in recent years, and I am grateful for their persistence. However, Americans tend to have the attitude of being untouchable, and this was another needed lesson on how we are all One.

United we stand, Divided we fall. Together we can heal the world. The illusion of separateness is just furthering the fear, the pain and the grief. Now is the time for us to work together to make the best out of this situation, especially with Saturn now entering Sagittarius.

Saturn is an authoritative presence in the world, much like the world authorities in governments who now have us under their thumbs. But the world’s population is becoming more aware of the reality of things.

The truth is being revealed in report upon report of how the government is looking out for its own agenda and letting down and exploiting its own people.

There are protests in Hong Kong and Mexico, while Ukraine, Syria, Iraq and Egypt are under siege by people tired of being controlled by the authority of others. Then there were the ISIS beheadings, and Russia taking over after an innocent international plane is gunned down.

And this was only the beginning of the end of our innocence.

There was the mystery of Flight 370 lost, ending the 239 lives aboard; the sinking of the Korean ferry boat, ending 300 lives, mainly children; hundreds of young girls are kidnapped and sold in Nigeria, the world being shown the sex trade is still intact, and the year ending with the slaughter of hundreds of children killed in Pakistan while in school.

There has been an end to our privacy as hacking becomes the news with celebrity private emails being shared with the world; texts and images are made public. US corporations’ securities were made vulnerable as the major banks and stores were hit, exposing millions of people’s information.

We also had Sony backing down after personal emails were released and their decision to delay the release of a comedy, The Interview, out of fear and safety of the population. Has the world lost their sense of humor?

“At least that’s what people say,
That’s what people say,

But I keep cruising
Can’t stop, won’t stop moving
It’s like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, “It’s gonna be alright.”

‘Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off”

~ Taylor Swift, Shake It Off

We needed to refocus ourselves on kindness, people and what really matters in this world.

With the surprising deaths of many amazing talents, including Phillip Seymour Hoffman, Joan Rivers and Robin Williams among others, we opened our hearts a little wider with deep gratitude for these positive people. Their inspiration brought us gifts of genius and a flare for outrageous fearlessness.

All helped sugarcoat the bizarre and take a bite out of our world’s edginess with grace for a reflective moment.

In the background, like the energies of Scorpio, the self esteem of women comes forward to empower them into standing up for themselves. From the NFL players and Bill Cosby’s situation, women stood up and said Enough, empowering many with their actions.

Women took the leadership role in 20 major corporations and government, including Google, IBM and HP… is this the ending of the Good Ol’ Boys’ Club? We can hope for more women leaders to step up and show the way to our hearts.

Bright moments of the year include the World Cup of soccer becoming a global unifier — and heading the trending topics — in the news and social media.

We saw the end of legends with the changing of the guards on late night TV with Jay Leno, Steve Colbert, Craig Ferguson and David Letterman. The Late Night Kings left their posts and allowed the new generation to come in, opening the door for the younger adults to get their chance in the spotlight.

They opened the truth of both sides of the news, lifting the vibration with a laugh and humor.

“It’s funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can’t get to me at all
Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe
I know I left a life behind but I’m too relieved to grieve”

~ Demi Lovato, Frozen

We need to thank Saturn for showing us the underbelly of humanity exposed in 2014, and we now have the rebirth in 2015 as the year changes and as Saturn moves into the mind expansive Sagittarius. Aim high and the rewards will be there is the motto of Saturn in Sagittarius.

Lessons still need to be learned, yet perhaps after 2014, we have learned that together in unity we can bring needed change with patience, determination and peace in minds.

“All you need is love. But a little chocolate now and then doesn’t hurt.” ~ Charles M. Schulz




Happy 2015!

originally posted on Rebelle Society. 

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